Has not spoken to Fanny, but is prepared for whatever the outcome of the affair will be;until now, however, he has been very depressed, but Tom Slidell has been very kind to him; Charles McEvers told hom that Fanny's sister-in-law had told him that when someone is always botherd by a mad she likes she begins to dislike him; McEvetrs decided he must tell him [RM] about it; decided to talk to Tom Sliddell, who had had some bad experiences with women before; appreciated his kindness very much; decided that they should both go to visit Fanny that night; does not feel the visit went well; could not sleep that night and did not eat much the next day; read some of Cowper's poems; wrote business letters; spoke to Tom again prayed about his problems; slept better at night; went to call on Fanny the next day, but she was busy; visited other friends; found out that there was to be a party that he would not be invited to; now knows that there is no chance for him; Slidell told him that Fanny does not have feelings for him; plans to tell Fanny's sister-in-law he does not hold a grudge; quotes from Cowper; feels contwent with his state of mind and with his personal conduct. 4pp. ALS